12:13 PM: Something I have done, or not done, has stirred the embers of positive ambition. I would like to identify that thing and attempt to replicate it as needed. Perhaps, it is the simple satisfaction of crossing everything off my daily goals list a few days in a row. Or perhaps actually making some progress on our squalor coffin, no matter how small, has motivated me. Or perhaps having Tuesday and Thursday absent of patients has been restorative. Or perhaps committing to a lifting program that allots for greater recovery has left me less drained. Or perhaps, the caffeine is hitting just right, and the false sense of zealous initiative will fade into fatigue-fueled dejected apathy by mid-afternoon. If such should be the case, perhaps hard drugs are in order. Maybe I should do meth.
