I really do hope that the fatigue and mental fog is a symptom of low thyroid hormones that will resolve once the medication has a chance to exert itself (I have taken two daily doses up to this point). I have moments wherein I feel absolutely certain that the mental clarity, memory access, reasoning skills, confident communication, and confidence in general are augmented considerably in sobriety. Then I have moments like now – wherein I have yet to break free of the sluggish, sleepy fog since waking up nearly five hours ago.
I haven’t managed to leave my computer chair or do anything productive while in it since eating breakfast. I am so painfully aware of what feels more debilitating, soul-crushing than simple procrastination and sloth that I am on the verge of breaking something or breaking down and drinking just as I sit here. It is frustrating. I start at the Hospital next week and I’m worried of how I’m going to function if my thyroid isn’t actually my problem.
Be happy. Don’t complain. Stay focused.
