9:51 AM: It was after 3 AM before I even tried to sleep last night and I had a difficult time with it thereafter. For the first time in as long as I can recall, I laid there stressed about the following day. Wondering how I would fit everything in while getting more than two or three hours of sleep. Jiujitsu is pretty much a guaranteed no go and I’m not sure I will be done in time to go to the haunted house with Suzi. I was also stressed that I’ve not left myself time to work on the house let alone any empty temporal space. I’m already stressed about the prospect of choosing between spending Sunday working on the house or going over to Justin and Liz’s, which I’ve been wanting to do for weeks, if not months. I have to ask myself, is the money worth it? Maybe it is. But if that is really the case, I should be able to shift some things around, like working on the house, without guilt or anxiety.
