10:37 AM: I have exerted deliberate effort over extensive time establishing and addressing the things I value most. After several reiterations, my list became mental health, physical health, compassion / relationships, finances, and chores / house, in that order. After overwhelming myself with a laundry list of daily goals in each category, not that long ago, I decided instead to make a single daily goal for each category, prefaced by the question, “what is the one thing I can do that will make everything else easier or unnecessary?” Even more recently, I have decided to include more goals negativa (e.g., no complaining, no smoking, no spiteful ruination, no spending), especially on days my time is constrained and I am likely to sacrifice sleep to address five actionable goals, no matter how small.
This is good. But why the fuck isn’t fun on this list? I have even made it a point to ask myself, “how can I face fuck the most fun out of this situation?” in all situations. I don’t want to further overwhelm myself by adding a sixth category for the sake of it, or somehow pervert fun into an obligation; however, a recreation category may be restorative if executed correctly. If I decide to do this, where exactly on the hierarchy does it fall?
