12:27 PM: I feel groggy today. A little displaced as it is my first real day off in a few weeks. The focus of today will be on recuperation and reflection. I will spend some time with Suzi and Josh if possible. I leave in just a few minutes for my first day back at jiujitsu in a few weeks, and hopefully the beginning of another steady run with it.
12:47 AM (January 4): Some of my journal entries from 2016 were deeply reflective and profoundly useful to read months later. I worry that (forced) daily journaling could possibly detract from that. That I will get into the habit of just getting something down for the sake of it and that I may run on autopilot even on a day that I have something worthwhile to say. Or perhaps these mundane entries will still be randomly juxtaposed by the occasional instrument of introspection.
Today I spent time with Suzi and Josh. I also had a good day of jiujitsu. Until this very moment, I was viewing today as a half loss, as I accomplished little else. However, my plans with Suzi did not go as planned and I did not drink and I did not smoke. I was certain that I was at least going to smoke. Hell, I didn’t even get shit food like I’d intended. This is definitely several marks in the win column.
Also, it is worth noting that had things gone as planned, I’d probably not have made it to the SMART meeting this evening. And had I not made it, there likely would be no meeting next week. Valerie has a rehearsal in Pittsburgh and I offered to run the meeting next Tuesday. I am looking forward to this and will focus on it throughout the week.
