Focusing on how I feel after not doing a thing has been helpful. I was upset several nights this week and I didn’t feel the urge to drink; however, I did visualize myself buying a pack of cigarettes or black and milds on multiple occasions. I refrained and was thankful each morning. I honed in on this and also explored what I’d be feeling had I given in … the taste in my mouth, the smell on my hands, the heavy feeling in my chest, the odd feeling in my neck, and, most of all, the guilt for tempting the cancer gods with my stupid bullshit.
