9:13 AM: Today is my first day without taking a caffeine pill upon waking in so long as I can recall. I have been periodically pondering stopping nearly all supplements as they run out, with the exception of fish oil, creatine, and BCAA’s. However, I also worry that changing too much as my year nears and passes puts my sobriety in a precarious position.
The rest of 2017, November and December, would have possibly been difficult if I had not just thought of how much a shame it would be to not make it the entire year of 2017 without a drop. That may prolong the seeming necessity of passing an arbitrary temporal threshold a little longer. However, what is terrifying is the undercurrent of impatience at the notion of another two months without so much as the option. The end game is forever yet another two months seems an undue burden.
Today I will focus on the fit and fat Mike dichotomy and the things I am grateful for in the wake of who I was less than a year ago.
