10:44 AM: Core components of physical health are resilience, durability, and adaptability. Strength, endurance, agility, and bo staff skills are also crucial. I want to feel well, move well, be well. Sleep, exercise, and diet are the broad strokes by which these are achieved and I can begin prioritizing the tools used to facilitate each.
2:29 AM: I find the notion of disappointing my family so profoundly unsettling that I am willing to act against reason to avoid it. Perhaps that makes me weak. Less of a man. Less deserving of the respect a firm fucking “no” probably earns, not that I’d have the faintest idea. Two fucking vacations back to back. I was put in a position in which I had no good choice. I was pretty settled into the idea of just staying home so that I’d at least be making money while my representatives of future financial freedom were frivolously fritted away. But ultimately, I caved. As everyone, even I, knew I would. Fuck me. [I had insisted that my family decide between going to Myrtle Beach with the inlaws or going to California for the first time – so we compromised and did both.]
