1:34 PM: While reviewing last year’s journal at the beginning of this month, I came across an explicit resolution to not drink and not smoke for the month of June. Since then, I have fostered implicit resolve to not smoke this month (the not drinking is assumed at this point). I was somewhat hesitant to state the goal overtly. I’m not sure if it was because I wanted to leave myself an out, or I worried that in stating the aim I was somehow inviting failure, but I avoided writing it or saying it aloud nonetheless. I said it aloud to Josh and Jonathan over dinner last night and I am writing it now. No smokes for the month of June.
2:35 AM: Gotta be up at 6 AM for work at the hospital. Sometimes doing what I want has consequences. Worth it.
