5:26 PM: Late first entry. I wanted to get to work and get clocked in. It was my intention to make a quick entry while there, but it did not work out that way. I have been and will continue to focus on having fun for the rest of the day. It’s a little unsettling how effective it is at disarming the indignation and ceasing tendencies of ruination that I have struggled with for years. Multiple times today I experienced that familiar tightening and I was on the precipice of fuck all. Instead, I was able to relax into the notion of I might as well have some fun because I will be dead before long, even if I live a long life.
5:06 AM:
Today was pretty awesome. Everything went well at work and then I went to Oglebay with Adora, Suzi, and Dave. We went put put and then on a long walk through the trails. I carried Adora and Suzi over a patch of mud so that they didn’t ruin their shoes and later watched as they surprised me by crossing the waterfall along a narrow piece of concrete that required a fair amount of balance. I thought for sure at least one of them was going in the water. We then went out to eat. Suzi and I spent some time together when we got home, and then I had a two-hour conversation with Chad while I lifted from about 1 am to 3 am. I’m never really bored per se, but I believe it’s fair to say that I kicked abject complacency in the dick this day.
