12:42 PM: I will continue the gratitude practice and review this evening. While I have yet to explicitly write it out, the intent is to create a habit of gratitude that will combat the existential dread and resultant rage. In turn, this should keep me off the bottle. Cheers.
2:01 AM: Today I was grateful that I was able to see everyone before leaving, even if it was just for a little while. I made coffee and Adora and Kristen made tuna helper and Suzi folded laundry. I was also happy to have a quick and productive session with my first patient and then even more grateful that I seemed to leave my second patient in a less distraught state than I found her (granted, it could have been her pain medication kicking in as I was leaving, but she seemed legit ready to lose her shit when I first arrived). I was also thankful that my favorite patient of all time is doing so much better since moving downstairs. This moment I am thankful that I did not get smokes on the way home. I thought about it. I am also grateful that Josh and Haley seem to be really considering coming to the beach with us and that I was able to catch Jonathan for a few texts before he went to bed.
