1:16 PM: It is an understatement to say that I am ill content with the past two weeks. I have been unbalanced and ineffective. I will focus on reducing effort and improving results.
I also have some ambivalence regarding forcing the journaling twice a day. The quality absolutely suffers in most entries. However, I may still produce the same number of quality entries per time period, plus benefit from the practice in and of itself, regardless of quality. I will make it a point to finally finish reading my 2016 entries, as well as the last two weeks, to assess. I will also assess the last two weeks’ worth of goals at the mid-month point. I either need to start grinding out the daily goals or try a different approach.
Today I will also focus on intent.
12:00 AM (January 16): At the end of this month, I may take a break from the nightly journaling and goal setting. Lately, I feel that it has made me feel worse, rather than better. And, apparently, I’m in no way compelled to rectify that which perpetuates the growing disgust I have for myself.
Today I was grateful that I did not smoke last night. I’m quite certain the first prowler session would have went far worse had I smoked.
