7:51 AM: I feel surprisingly not shitty on a few hours of sleep. Hopefully the not shitty persists throughout the day. I received a call just after 6 am asking if I was free to work today. Of course, I took the hours. It was my intention to go back to sleep thereafter, but I was unsuccessful. I will also be rolling today at 1 pm, lifting with Jonathan sometime in the early evening, and then watching It’s Always Sunny with Jonathan and Josh sometime this evening. Once again, I am packing my day so full that I am not leaving much opportunity for pursuit elsewhere.
Today I will focus on simply being present and doing as little as possible outside the things I’ve already mentioned. It is my good intention to take a nap before lifting.
1:23 AM (January 13): I do not feel well. Either I’ve gotten sick or 10 raw eggs is my limit before fairly impressive gastric distress imposes itself upon me. While at shadyside, I pissed out my asshole multiple times. It was like a hot fountain just exploding from me. I was worried about being able to finish my evals without puking. With that said, I was present and unrushed with my patients. I felt mostly OK while focused on them. However, waking down the hall right afterwards was an adventure in what will happen if I can’t keep everything inside me.
I was not scheduled to work today. I worked approximately 12 hours. I did manage to get in a few rounds of jiujitsu and hang out with Josh and Jonathan after finishing everything. I’m not doing all that well with doing less, but I am focusing more and more on connection. I had an awesome time with those guys, once again. The water park episode of It’s Always Sunny was awesome and after finishing it we posted a picture of my ass to the WJU DPT 2015 private facebook group.
Once again, it was cathartic to be able to engage in such childish nonsense completely sober. If anything, I am definitely more, rather than less, likely to be so foolish when not drinking. It’s not that I wouldn’t do such a thing while drinking, it’s just that I’d be home drinking alone instead. This is important to remember.
Today I am grateful that I was able to remain empathetic and present with my patients while my tummy had the danger grumblies and that I was able to enjoy my time with Josh and Jonathan even though I had no guarantee the grumblies weren’t simply the first sign of a horrible stomach flu.
