8:52 AM: Today I will plan to make better use of tomorrow (a day off) than I did of Tuesday. It will be difficult to accomplish much else outside of that due to the hours I’m working. I’ll be lucky to make it to jiujitsu. I will also work gratitude into my evening entry and make a sincere effort to put a little more time into reflection of the day.
11:24 PM: I had to step away from everything before something was broken. My AirDroid software began malfunctioning and I was dangerously close to smashing the phone or the computer. I noticed Adora hadn’t taken down her dishes and I was on the verge of losing my shit over that as well. I also considered going to purchase a pack of cigarettes. That notion was palpable and underneath it was the subtle urge to dance [with my deamon]. I’m going to bed and hoping for a more manageable mind tomorrow. I believe I’m spreading myself too thin and I’m lacking the self-control to make some tough choices.
I am grateful that I managed to end the day without breaking anything.
