10:34 AM: It is worth reflecting on the fact that tonglen practice is most difficult, nearly impossible, for those closest to me. I actually meet less resistance in attempting the practice for strangers and people I severely dislike.
[Tonglen is a meditation practice in which you generate feelings of loving-kindness toward loved ones and progress to strangers and then to people you actively do not like – I’ve always struggled with what is supposed to be the easiest level]
Today my focus will be on not losing my shit.
11:46 PM: I have not lost my shit. I suppose that is a win. I also gave my half pack of cigarettes to my sister. I suppose that is win number two.
