Had an awesome time hanging out with Baker and Flowers tonight. I laughed hard enough to put my head down in my arms at least half a dozen times. It was reinforcing to see how much fun I can have sober. I already had plenty of examples of this in the past, but it was reinforcing all the same. Alcohol would have definitely lessened the experience. We were at Applebee’s to watch a sporting event, but I wasn’t even faced toward the television. I think the Steelers won the Super Series or something.
I still haven’t managed to catch an online meeting on the SMART rehab site, but I jumped into chat for a little while last night, I’ve continued reading, and I went to my first meeting at the Unity Center tonight. It was a good experience, but not for the reason I would have expected. I believe that I could do a good job as a facilitator. I seemed to reach one kid more so than anyone else, and it felt awesome. I had already been thinking about becoming a facilitator after six months of sobriety, but I’m positive that this will be a big part of my life. It will be much more difficult to relapse when I’m spending so much time engaged in helping others stay sober. In spite of all my past failures, I have hope. [I did become a facilitator, but it did not remain a big part of my life – April 2019]
